Gertie's Bitch and Grip of the Week : Putting in workout hours

My weightloss challenge is fitness: putting in the hours to workout and making it count

I'm looking forward to a good week. My goal is to put in the hours and be consistent about it regardless of "how busy" I can or will get this week.

Food goals :   Is basically the same. No fast food.

Easter Fun Recap

Easter was fun. Nothing beats hanging out with the family and just enjoying the nice 80 degree weather!

Yellow sponge cake with peach and mandarin custard filling

I adore the giant "dinosaur" eggs

It really was a fun day. My little nephew was having a ball playing the the spinning sprinklers all day long.

Food wise I had a piece of cake -- but who in their right minds would not resist even it was just a bite?  :)

I start school on Wednesday. I'm excited and anxious as usual. I'm gonna be a alot more busy again.

I did Yoga X in P90x... I have newfound respect with Yoga since it kicked my ass while I was at downward-facing-dog. This is actually the first time I felt sore after doing yoga.

Anyway, hope everyone is doing great and having a fabulous week!

Something to think About ...

**Update**

I ate breakfast today. And I've squashed that little voice in my head telling me -- "wouldn't it be tasty to ... get some easter chocolates at the store??" -- Slam!

I feel so proud :)

I also did Zumba Power today. Which is super fun! It brought out good memories I use to take dance classes all the time, salsa particularly. But since the move out here, there's no local gym that offers them.

God Bless You Tube!!

I really hope that once school starts again that I can will myself to put in the hours. It's not out of laziness or misplaced priority. Studying takes the whole day for me on days I'm not in class. It's that intense.

Maybe I'm just not studying effectively? I have to look into that more.

Today's Food Breakdown

Breakfast

• 1/4 cup home-made carrot-potato salad
• 1/4 cup ground beef

Lunch

• 1/2 cup rice
• 1/4 cup black beans
• 1/4 cup carrot-potato salad

Dinner

• 1/4 cup carrot-potato salad
• 1/2 cup romaine lettuce
• 1/4 cup ground beef

Snack

• Krafts Granola Bar

Much Love to Everyone

Today's Food Break-down

Breakfast

• Oatmeal with almond milk
• 1/2 cup of egg whites with red bell peppers
• 1/2 serving of Lean Shake (4 oz)

Lunch

• Whole wheat pita
• 1 strip of bacon
• lettuce
• tomato

Dinner

• about 5-6 oz of pork loin
• pico de gallo (tomatoes and onion mix)
• 1/2 cup of white rice

Snack

• apple
• raw almond butter
• 1/2 serving of Lean shake (4 oz)

I wanted to thank everyone for their support and encouragement. Saying it out loud lifted some heavy weight I've been carrying for a very long time. Thank you ladies **hugs**

Am I regressing? No. I can proudly say that I've settled that issue once and for all (it has been 8 years since).

 I was doing it for the wrong reasons. It was not for the sake of being healthy, I thought if I become skinny, the ex wont leave me or cheat on me. 

Seeing the old photo gave me the dose of reality check. I cannot continue to be complacent with myself.

 I'm having an emo-moment, I know.

I'm just glad that we have each other's support. It's so comforting knowing that we're not alone on this.

source Muffintopless

Cold Reality Slap in the Face

I am Fat.

I'm not gonna be nice with it. It's plain and simple. 

Took some gruesome photos of myself and it was a cold hard slap in the face.

 It was painful to look at the rolls and muffins. And the fact that I was holding my breath when the photo was taken did not make anything look better and made me feel even worse.

169 freaking pounds. What the hell happened. Of course I know the answer to that question.

 I .. happened. The excuses happened.

I can't even bring myself to post the "full-frontal". It's difficult to look at what I had done to myself.

Maybe that's the problem. 

I can't seem to find a good middle ground with my body. I find myself either morbidly obese or with an eating disorder.

There I said it.

The only way I lost the weight in the past was through extreme exercise and purging. I was 121 lbs in this "skinny-photo". I appear smiling, but there's a whole lot of scary shit that's going on behind that smile.

It was hell

I never want to find myself in that hole ever again.

I'm doing it the right way, not a temporary fix.

I don't want this whole losing weight journey a permanent full-time job.

I just want to freaking live and not worry about whether I put in my mouth is gonna be the source of regret later.

Is that even possible?

Today's Food Breakdown

Breakfast

• Oatmeal with almond milk and a splash of amaretto coffee cream
• 1/2 cup of egg whites - I gave the rest to Daisy I wasn't all that hungry this morning for some reason.
• 2 mango sunflower sanwich crackers (100 calories)

Lunch

• 1 Dannon strawberry yogurt
• 1 whole wheat pita breat
• 1 oz cheese
• 1 whole tomatoes

Dinner

• 4 oz Tilapia fillet
• broccoli salad
• 2 mango sunflower sandwhich crackers (100 calories)

Snacks

• 1 apple
• 2 tbsp raw almond butter (200 calories)

Total Calories - 1245 calories

Exercise

• Round 2 with J.M Ripped in 30

I'm taking it a little lighter today. My back is killing me.

Today's Fitspiration comes from Sexymuscles

First Real Exercise in Months That Almost Killed Me

Dear Lord.. am I praying for my knees and side flank to stop aching!  Ms. Michaels kicked my ass...

Once upon a time, I had no problem doing any of her cursed routines. I had to modify the side plank dips and it was embarrassing lol

I sucked a$$

But I stuck with it all the way and I am proud of myself for it.

Breakfast: Home-made breakfast burrito
Snack:  High protein PB popsicles
Lunch:   Dannon strawberry yogurt, 3 strawberry skyflakes ( I wasn't all that hungry today, so I didn't get to eat what I planned earlier which was the side-salad/half pita)
Dinner:  Salad and Chille Relleno

Farmer Gertie is In the House

I started the morning with some major gardening. It's fairly getting warmer outside so I figured it's time to transplant the seedlings we've sproated early february.

 We sproated tomatoes, green peppers, carrots, corn and green beans. I can't wait to yield some organic veggies!

These guys survived the winter : Chives, tarragon, italian and sweet parsely

It was time to transplant the green beans they weren't doing well in the little pots for too long

Green and Red pepper seedlings

This is my lemon-grass and avocado seedlings. I'm so excited I didn't think they'd survive!

My sweet basil plant didn't survive winter so I'm planning to get some this weekend. They grow pretty fast through the year.

I got a couple of rose bushes and gladiolas that I planted last month. I've been wanting a flower garden for a while now -- it's still a work in progress.

The weather is a bit harsh here but we've been pretty successful growing herbs and tomatoes last year, so we're doing it again.

Gardening is added to my daily "workout" sessions. I'm tackling Jillian Michaels this afternoon and planning to walk Daisy.

Breakfast was home-made breakfast burrito and my high protein PB pops
Lunch is side salad with 1/2 pita bread and hummus
Dinner I'm thinking stuffed green peppers or chile relleno -- not sure yet :)