Next Order of Business ---- NCLEX

Ahhh it's finally official! --- Look out world! Nurse Gertie is in the house!!!

It really does feel good --- no it's freaking spectacular to be done. But this is all just the beginning. I'm ready to proceed to next chapter of this journey and pass the NCLEX, get my license and finally practice :)

I'm also looking forward into getting healthy and losing all these post-school weight (haha kinda late post-baby weight)

I'll be updating more and focus a bit on losing weight and recuperating from this 2 year program

If I were to give advise to all the nursing student out there... it would be.

• One, believe in yourself. Sometimes its so easy to doubt your own capabilities, you really know more than you think.
• Two, never change your answer, the first answer is almost always the right one -- stop overthinking it and only answer that is being ask. If you must change the answer, it has to be 100% certainty -- not because it sounded good.
• Three, pray or meditate.. whatever works to focus your energy and your mind to a positive place in times of stress (like before an exam or waiting for the result of your exam)

Afterthought

Breaking up is so hard to do…

Taking down the makeshift calendar with pen scratched marks of days and weeks gone by of nursing school

Boxing and sorting worn out textbooks that seen the good, the bad, and the pathetic

Nights when I shuffle through flashcards and break down because I just didn’t have enough time to pull it together.

 Looking though my clinic bag and finding stow-away alcohol wipes, lancets, and glucose monitor strips.

 I feel this sense of sadness in saying goodbye.

To my Brunner’s and stacks of power points that became a part of my life through this journey.

 My stethoscope stares at me with anticipation of things to come.

 Does it seem right to just pile them away in a plastic bin and never look back? Maybe there is bigger underlying issue that I refuse… no… reluctant to see.

 Saying farewell to the band of pathfinders who fought alongside the fierce academic terrain with me.

There were no competitions.
No one cared who got the best grade or the worst.

 We are brothers and sisters who felt the joy of success and the loss within each other.

These very people I have come to care about and love. The second family that I have spent more time than anyone else I know.

 So, there is no goodbye. A bond will always remain enduring for the rest of my life.

See you on the floor Nurses. The journey – our journey has yet to unfold.  

hehe maybe not.. :) back to studying --- Finals Tomorrow!

Wait.... I think I just found my niche.

just finished my last clinic day in tele.. man .. am I tired.

tired physically...
tired mentally...
tired emotionally...
tired emotionally... did I mentioned I'm tired emotionally?

I am just ready to be done and move on!

My group rotated today in the ER.  and honestly I have a good feeling that this is a place I'd like to be when I grow up haha.

But I'd like to start off and gain a few more experience at the med-surg floor before I dive into ER.. maybe even ICU.. but I think I'd pee my pants if I land a job in the ER.

Anyway, I have one more exam to go before the final praying and making plans to do well so I can somehow enjoy the fact that I'm graduating.

 It's hard to get fully excited and happy when you think about grades. I'm passing, but I'd like a little wiggle room for the final.

Now a little nursing school humor for your enjoyment haha :)

Late Night Post

Actually 11:30pm is pretty early for me. But I'm tired of looking at my notes and powerpoints. So I'd give my bugged eyes a break to do something I actually enjoy -- which is this :)

Crap.. 36 more days and counting.. shit.

Things move really fast don't they? I finally received my white graduation dress, my white shoes and stockings... It's sooo fracking surreal I don't feel it even if I pinch myself.

All I need is a passing grade in medsurg and I can finally breathe! It's torture -- you have no idea

I've got about 2 more -- wait. 3 more major exams to go and I need to pass these suckers. haha forget A's... just pass em' because honestly if anyone is THAT smart to ever go through these infinite amount of information to absorb and know -- frack.. might as well be a doctor.. because that's exactly how this feels like.

Nurses are like the gate keepers of patient care. We're doctors, pharmacist, physical therapist, case managers, psychologist, glorified waitresses.. the list goes on and on.. lol so yea... you kinda need to know like.. everything? :/

haha of course I'm over-exaggerating.

so 36 days.. I was filling out my NCLEX exam form.. got butterflies just thinking of finally having that 2 magical letters after my last name.... R.N :) Can't wait for that.

My love-bug booked a Hawaii trip post graduation so I'M FREAKING EXCITED.

God. I'd hate to have fat pictures on my dream vaca. But that's another stress added to passing nursing school and quite honestly I'm about yay high above quota.

So I'm not gonna think about it just yet. I'll worry about it when I'm done with this program..

June 2.. save that seat for me muthafracker.. because I'm going to graduate!!!!!


PS. Thank you soooo much you ladies. especially Jenny and Jewelz.. for all the awesome support. You ladies are the best <3

Goodnight! I'm hitting the books --eerrr. *splat*

it's all about the YODO

Seriously....

no really. I meant it  I am seriously SICK of school ... akkkk! 57 days and counting I think that's 7-8 weeks

It's seems a little surreal especially when my graduation dress, nurse pin are all ordered -- I honestly don't feel prepared for the real world LOL

but as many nurses say, the huge chunk of learning never stops and most of it is learned on the job. I'm currently rotating in ICU --- it's exciting and a bit intimidating well at first anyway... But as the week went by it wasn't as bad as I initially thought.. you learn soo much and that's one of the things I love about this rotation.

my clinical instructor is nice.. but she's menopausal lol.. I only say this because she's nice and joking around at one point then switches to scary-I'll bite your head off kind of deal. Not to me specifically, but I hear stories from others. So it makes me feel intimidated when I work with her. She's seems nice to me, but I'm always on my toes because I never what to see the scary side.

I figured whatever. I'm here to learn and I'll take it as that

What else.. I did better on the exam 2 -- barely. lol I'm sooo not out of the woods just yet, so I'm consistent in busting my ass in studying. My mom always tell me to relax and take time to rest. But I don't think she understands the intensity of nursing school.

I feel bad sometimes because the stress gets to me

I bark.. growl.. and snarl at people in my house.. my hubs and the doggie. And I feel guilty because I know it's not fair to them

I honestly can't handle anything else but school right now. and it sucks.

I guess it would have been even more difficult if I have kids. And it's amazing how others how juggle school and kids manage all of that.

Well I didn't plan on making this a mini novella titled whiner's corner: life of a nursing student.

Sorry for not updating [for those who follow my blog --- thank you all <3 ]  I have been living under a rock and numerous piles of textbooks. I was actually in spring break..

but what nursing student EVER have a spring break? To non-nursing students are like.. yay! spring break I'm going to the beach!

the nursing student would say, yay! spring break -- I can finally catch up on studying...

how crappy is that?

Anyway, was given the opportunity to get my ACLS certification for dirt cheap -- but I didn't take it cuz I needed to just concentrate on studying. so there.

Quite honestly, I did took advantage of sleeping in and sleeping early, so I don't feel as "tired" but I'm sure that will all change again on Monday

Anyway, diet is just as crappy. I haven't been to the gym or exercise for a LONG time and I'm feeling it

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a good week :)

Rough Semester

It has been a rough semester so far.. I'm so busy it's darn ridiculous. I'm tired, cranky and brain dead. Did AWFUL in my first exam. The questions seems so personal, as if the all the teachers are out to make sure I fail and never become a nurse.

Sigh.. yea sounds pretty morbidly depressing.

I'm trying to cope with it by studying harder and doing better next time.. My only comfort right now is that knowing I'm not the only one that gotten a D on the first exam. In fact the majority of the class did.. Yikes..

Anyway, my health is also deteriorating lol .. I'm scheduled for an US next Friday and hopefully it's nothing serious.

but on a good note. I'm trying to put my best foot forward and just freaking survive nursing school

I kept my gym membership I figured it'll force me to get some exercise -- if I have a free 30 minute in the week -- which is rare as I anticipated in the beginning.

two-12 hour shifts with homework in between is brutal. I wake up at 430 to get to school, don't get back till 9pm. I stay up till 1030 to finish my careplan that's due the next day. Wake up again at 430 then go home at 9pm.. fun fun fun

Thank god it's only 2 consecutive days..

Anyway I hope everyone is doing good :)

Happy Friday! <3

Back to studying.