Sunday, April 29, 2012

I'm becoming a Vampire

It's 2300 and I'm wide awake lol.. so might as well study right? of course. Sleeping patterns has been out of whack lately (I'm wide awake at night and sleepy in the AM) -- the only thing missing is craving blood right? lol)

stress blows.

I'm happy to report that I did pretty well on my exam :) I actually did better than I thought --- the questions were tough.  Doing well means I have wiggle room just incase I frack-up on the next one coming in next week. Cardiac stuff, ECG interpretations..

The whole concept isn't difficult, it's the massive amount of information that I need to cram in my head is the problem.

I really should get back to studying.. hehe :)

Weightloss.. what weightloss. I've been doing really bad and I'm so ashamed. I can easily say I'll do better next week but it's easier to say than actual execution.

Hope everyone else is doing better. I need some good motivational kick in the butt!


Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I love this Shoes so much ---

that I bought a second pair (solid whites ) for clinicals -- Yowza! it's so well constructed and full of support that I glide instead of walking LOL They're called Reebox Zig Nano

But really they're super comfortable and works so well since I'm standing (and I'm serious) 6 hours straight in clinic.

Does that burn any calories?

Today I had my first exam for Med-surg. Didnt' get any sleep the night before so I'm dead tired. I think we get our grades this Sunday.. so till then I just have to sit and marinate and obsess over how well or how bad I did.

Anyway I hope you ladies are having a fabulous week so far!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Weird Sunday Experience

This morning I had someone rang the doorbell at 6-freaking AM on a Sunday morning. At first I thought it was the mister, but it was some guy asking if a person named "JT" live here. I was like -- no there's no one with that name that lives here. He replied, "Oh okay -- it's probably the next house"

For the life of me, I wasn't wearning my glasses, so I didn't get to look at him clearly. I'm blind as a bat without them.. All I knew was he parked right in the front curb in some gold van, and he's wearing a red shirt and khakis..

But I'm like -- why would anyone knock at someone's door at 6AM to ask if so and so lives there? Should you know which house whoever you're looking for?

Anyway I'm getting all paranoid but could that be a possible burglar trying to scope the neighborhood to see who lives where?

It's scaring the bejesus out of me.

Any suggestions?

Monday, April 16, 2012


source healthyladylumps

Kinda random but it totally put it into perspective for me.

Today was an interesting day. I got invited to a little lunch get together with a group of housewives in my neighborhood. It's kind of nice because living out here (in the boonies) is so very isolating.  It's so refreshing meeting new people and socializing. Apparently, they do this get-together every month.

And speaking of socializing -- I'm a bit rusty lol

I sometimes feel a bit awkward or worried about saying the wrong things and offending someone. Yikes.. I need to get out more! lol

I hope everyone is having a great week so far!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Poop Friday

Encountered poop today at clinic. Didn't bother me at all, which is good because that's just one of those things you can't avoid when you're a nurse. lol
from sketchfu

I was working with this lovely lady. She's super sweet and very misunderstood I think.  I don't really understand why people would say she's disoriented, when it's so obvious that she really just can't hear.

God, this passed 3 days --- 3 DAYS! felt like a month has just passed. That's how dead tired I am.  There so much to do and so little time. Sucks ass if you ask me.

I got another week to study for my first Med-Surg Exam. I really wanted to do well in this class. I don't want to fracking fail.

I haven't worked out since Tuesday -- pretty bummed but I'm hoping once I get the groove of things I can start it again. I'm doing pretty good with avoiding sweets and I honestly noticed I haven't been eating as much as I use to.

Haven't stepped in the scale either, but I'm sure there's nothing significant in it. I've been doing P90x Kenpo and Yoga x -- love it. I actually felt sore afterwards, which means I probably worked out something I haven't in awhile and shook up some "cobwebs".

I hope everyone is doing better in their quest for health. Wish you all a fabulous weekend ahead!
from redbrickgirl

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Tomorrow is the big day

For some reason, I kind of like what the banner said. I have been eating less to no sugar at all this past week. I noticed I've been ultra sensitive to it where I find myself with a nasty headache.

Maybe it is a good thing that I've been getting these symptoms. It totally makes me think twice about buying or eating anything sweet.  

Breakfast today was a croissant sandwich with orange marmalade. It was super tasty.

I've been trying to stay focus and complete my flashcards for review. But I can't seem to concentrate. The weather outside is fabulous -- why in the world may I indoors?

This is one of those days I wish we live close to the beach. I miss the ocean.

I'm going to do a double feature in my workout today. I didn't get the chance to do anything yesterday because I was too busy fracking around online. Where is my focus damnit! :)

I end up buying a new pair of sneakers and some cute summer sunglasses.

I'm just so thrilled with the color! I love green! Too bad I can't wear colors in clinic-- I wouldn't think twice sporting this baby. Come to think of it -- forget it. The last thing I need is this cutie stained with poop and blood and everything else in between.

I've been eye-ing this for a while now. It was originally $99 and it went down to $49 so I jumped at the opportunity :)

In other news, I got real pissed this morning when I discovered our neighbor dumped their fracking garbage in our bin. I can understand if their bin was full but it was not. So why the frack did she do that?

I caught up with her and ask her if she did it. And suprisingly she admitted and said she should have ask me -- Uh... yea!

I told her to try not to put her garbage in our bins since we needed the space to throw the tumble weeds that's been accommulating in our side yard. I said it nicely of course.

They're nice people and we've exchange goodies once in a while. But does that make it okay for them to do that? Or am I just over-reacting.  Can someone tell me straight up? I won't take offense if it the case lol

Monday, April 9, 2012

What a meal-plate should look like?


from sexy muscles

Gertie's Bitch and Grip of the Week : Putting in workout hours

My weightloss challenge is fitness: putting in the hours to workout and making it count

I'm looking forward to a good week. My goal is to put in the hours and be consistent about it regardless of "how busy" I can or will get this week.

Food goals :   Is basically the same. No fast food.

Easter Fun Recap

Easter was fun. Nothing beats hanging out with the family and just enjoying the nice 80 degree weather!
Yellow sponge cake with peach and mandarin custard filling

I adore the giant "dinosaur" eggs
It really was a fun day. My little nephew was having a ball playing the the spinning sprinklers all day long.

Food wise I had a piece of cake -- but who in their right minds would not resist even it was just a bite?  :)

I start school on Wednesday. I'm excited and anxious as usual. I'm gonna be a alot more busy again.

I did Yoga X in P90x... I have newfound respect with Yoga since it kicked my ass while I was at downward-facing-dog. This is actually the first time I felt sore after doing yoga.

Anyway, hope everyone is doing great and having a fabulous week!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Something to think About ...


I ate breakfast today. And I've squashed that little voice in my head telling me -- "wouldn't it be tasty to ... get some easter chocolates at the store??" -- Slam!

I feel so proud :)

I also did Zumba Power today. Which is super fun! It brought out good memories I use to take dance classes all the time, salsa particularly. But since the move out here, there's no local gym that offers them.

God Bless You Tube!!

I really hope that once school starts again that I can will myself to put in the hours. It's not out of laziness or misplaced priority. Studying takes the whole day for me on days I'm not in class. It's that intense.

Maybe I'm just not studying effectively? I have to look into that more.

Today's Food Breakdown

  • 1/4 cup home-made carrot-potato salad
  • 1/4 cup ground beef
  • 1/2 cup rice
  • 1/4 cup black beans
  • 1/4 cup carrot-potato salad
  • 1/4 cup carrot-potato salad
  • 1/2 cup romaine lettuce
  • 1/4 cup ground beef
  • Krafts Granola Bar

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Much Love to Everyone

Today's Food Break-down

  • Oatmeal with almond milk
  • 1/2 cup of egg whites with red bell peppers
  • 1/2 serving of Lean Shake (4 oz)
  • Whole wheat pita
  • 1 strip of bacon
  • lettuce
  • tomato
  • about 5-6 oz of pork loin
  • pico de gallo (tomatoes and onion mix)
  • 1/2 cup of white rice
  • apple
  • raw almond butter
  • 1/2 serving of Lean shake (4 oz)

I wanted to thank everyone for their support and encouragement. Saying it out loud lifted some heavy weight I've been carrying for a very long time. Thank you ladies **hugs**

Am I regressing? No. I can proudly say that I've settled that issue once and for all (it has been 8 years since).

 I was doing it for the wrong reasons. It was not for the sake of being healthy, I thought if I become skinny, the ex wont leave me or cheat on me. 

Seeing the old photo gave me the dose of reality check. I cannot continue to be complacent with myself.

 I'm having an emo-moment, I know.

I'm just glad that we have each other's support. It's so comforting knowing that we're not alone on this.

source Muffintopless

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Cold Reality Slap in the Face

I am Fat.

I'm not gonna be nice with it. It's plain and simple. 

Took some gruesome photos of myself and it was a cold hard slap in the face.

 It was painful to look at the rolls and muffins. And the fact that I was holding my breath when the photo was taken did not make anything look better and made me feel even worse.

169 freaking pounds. What the hell happened. Of course I know the answer to that question.

 I .. happened. The excuses happened.

I can't even bring myself to post the "full-frontal". It's difficult to look at what I had done to myself.

Maybe that's the problem. 

I can't seem to find a good middle ground with my body. I find myself either morbidly obese or with an eating disorder.

There I said it.
The only way I lost the weight in the past was through extreme exercise and purging. I was 121 lbs in this "skinny-photo". I appear smiling, but there's a whole lot of scary shit that's going on behind that smile.

It was hell

I never want to find myself in that hole ever again.

I'm doing it the right way, not a temporary fix.

I don't want this whole losing weight journey a permanent full-time job.

I just want to freaking live and not worry about whether I put in my mouth is gonna be the source of regret later.

Is that even possible?

Today's Food Breakdown

  • Oatmeal with almond milk and a splash of amaretto coffee cream
  • 1/2 cup of egg whites - I gave the rest to Daisy I wasn't all that hungry this morning for some reason.
  • 2 mango sunflower sanwich crackers (100 calories)
  • 1 Dannon strawberry yogurt
  • 1 whole wheat pita breat
  • 1 oz cheese
  • 1 whole tomatoes
  • 4 oz Tilapia fillet
  • broccoli salad
  • 2 mango sunflower sandwhich crackers (100 calories)
  • 1 apple
  • 2 tbsp raw almond butter (200 calories)
Total Calories - 1245 calories

  • Round 2 with J.M Ripped in 30

I'm taking it a little lighter today. My back is killing me.

Today's Fitspiration comes from Sexymuscles

Monday, April 2, 2012

First Real Exercise in Months That Almost Killed Me

Dear Lord.. am I praying for my knees and side flank to stop aching!  Ms. Michaels kicked my ass...

Once upon a time, I had no problem doing any of her cursed routines. I had to modify the side plank dips and it was embarrassing lol

I sucked a$$

But I stuck with it all the way and I am proud of myself for it.

Breakfast: Home-made breakfast burrito
Snack:  High protein PB popsicles
Lunch:   Dannon strawberry yogurt, 3 strawberry skyflakes ( I wasn't all that hungry today, so I didn't get to eat what I planned earlier which was the side-salad/half pita)
Dinner:  Salad and Chille Relleno

Farmer Gertie is In the House

I started the morning with some major gardening. It's fairly getting warmer outside so I figured it's time to transplant the seedlings we've sproated early february.

 We sproated tomatoes, green peppers, carrots, corn and green beans. I can't wait to yield some organic veggies!

These guys survived the winter : Chives, tarragon, italian and sweet parsely

It was time to transplant the green beans they weren't doing well in the little pots for too long

Green and Red pepper seedlings

This is my lemon-grass and avocado seedlings. I'm so excited I didn't think they'd survive!
My sweet basil plant didn't survive winter so I'm planning to get some this weekend. They grow pretty fast through the year.

I got a couple of rose bushes and gladiolas that I planted last month. I've been wanting a flower garden for a while now -- it's still a work in progress.

The weather is a bit harsh here but we've been pretty successful growing herbs and tomatoes last year, so we're doing it again.

Gardening is added to my daily "workout" sessions. I'm tackling Jillian Michaels this afternoon and planning to walk Daisy.

Breakfast was home-made breakfast burrito and my high protein PB pops
Lunch is side salad with 1/2 pita bread and hummus
Dinner I'm thinking stuffed green peppers or chile relleno -- not sure yet :)