Take that! Mr. Fat!
It has been 5 days since I had any dessert. And it has been a rough ride. Sugar/Dessert is an addiction for me. I crave it and fantasize about it. It's always in my face
When I'm feeling crappy, I get the urge to go to the store and buy a bagful of chocolate kisses.
It's not a pretty site.
Couple months back I went to Vegas and boughy 2 dozen french macarroons
It was suppose to be for my Mom and sister --- a thank you present for house-sitting for us that weekend. Well it never got to them since I ate every stinking cute yummy morsels
These babies are pure white sugar and egg whites. I couldn't resist the merenge consistency and the chocolate ganash or rasberry filling or the pistachio cream center.
Yes I have a problem. I don't have the control to take a bite and walk way --- not yet anyway.
I also cannot be in the same room with ANY type of dessert. Hello, my name is Gertie and I'm a sugar addict.
But I'm so proud of my progress so far. I haven't succumb to the call of the sugary siren. So I know I'll get stronger eventually
I can feel it.
So what do I do when I get that feeling that I need something sweet? (this usually happens after any meal)
I drink tea with honey. For some reason, the warm liquid puts out the cravings.
Anyway, I'm taking baby steps. I'm fighting sugar now and that's all I'm concentrating on.
School-wise -- I have 2 days of clinic left in OB. I get to work with the nurses in the Operating Room and get to watch a Cesarean birth. It was pretty exciting. I never thought that when the surgeon take a low transverse cut through the amniotic sac that it bursts like a freaking geyzer. There is a splash zone in the OR (I thanked my lucky stars I wasn't in it at the time)
It was very exciting. I always found myself getting emotional and teary eyed every time babies are born. It's truly a miracle.
It feels like these adorable babies are my own. In essence, I feel like I have 5 kids in counting
Does the experience make me want to have kids? --- Hell to the Fracking No :)