Four weeks in postpartum has come to an end. Next week --- Labor and delivery -- oh boy.. or girl!
I have mixed feelings about it all, only because I am so bad at things when I have no idea what to expect. My hope is that I'll get over it soon and somehow managed to get a good nursing experience.
Anyway, I went shopping at Trader Joes which is this awesome, somewhat affortable health food store in my area.
I got a whole lot of great healthy goodies -- no sweets! So I'm expecting this month to start off awesome.
I still feel pissed about not hitting my weight mark last february -- I was so freaking close. It's so difficult when I can only put in about 40% towards anything "weightloss". But I'm so putting whatever time I can spare.
I'm getting good at walking with Daisy for 20 mins every other day, which I think is an improvement from not getting exercise at all.
But honest to goodness I feel disgusting inside. It's getting harder and harder to breathe at night and I've been having some funky palpitations and it scares the shit out of me.
I don't know if its just anxiety from school, stress, what I eat.. it's probably all of the above.
I seriously can't live like this.
If I don't make the changes soon, I'll lose that chance and have a heart attack.
As you can tell, this scares the bejesus out of me. My mom started hypertensives meds at 38.. I am 31. so shit.. yea the apple probably will not fall too far from the tree if I don't do anything.
It's amazing how much we take our health for granted and place it in the back burner.
I am 5'2
BMI of 31 Obese catergory
What kind of a nurse would I be if I can't even role model for my patients? What a joke.